Yeah.

203.7
Tomorrow my weight is bound to go up a bit though. Today I've had mostly just liquids. I'll post a picture to follow. This time I'll actually do it, compared to my previous times, lol.
Also, my good friend Karim (whom should get a lot of credit, after he trains athletes for a living), has suggested that I lose my weight through lifting, not cardio. He drew a graph which made sense to me, showing how if I did long cardio my cortisone levels would remain up, when I need those to go down so my body doesnt get stuck in that repetitive wtf-feed-me mode. I will listen to what he says, and I will change my work out to suit his suggestions. After all, he does know what I'm doing much more than I do.
So, yes, pictures to follow.

I think I'm doing well

Tuesdays and Thursdays are tiring. Those days I try to run for half hour. However, lately, I've only been able to do 25 minutes ish. I gotta step it up and get back to half hour. I'm at about 211 pounds. Things are looking good.
Mau.

oh my monday.

Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, they consist of this:
Wake up at 6 am. Very light breakfast. Coffee at work. EC and fish oil. Possibly another coffee and a small granola bar (15.5 grams, from which 11 grams are carbs, 70 calories), and then, work out at lunch.
How it goes:
Seated tricep press, 10 reps, 25 lbs each arm.
Pull-ups, 10.
Dips, 10.
Calf raises, 10.
Crunches (or well, ab roller) 10.
Barbell squats, 10, 140 lbs.
Leg extensions, 10, setting 15. Used to be 12, but I upped it by mistake and can't back down.
Standing leg curls, 10, setting 5.
Dumbell pull-over.Ribcage expansion, 10 at 45 lbs.
Seated military press, 10 at 110 lbs.
Seated cable row, 10 at setting 15.
Bench press, 10 at 110 lbs.
Bicep curls, 10, 30 lbs.
 
There is room for gradual improvement. My pull-ups started at 8, very spaced. I can do better now, though still not 10 in a ro2. Dips, started at 8, I'm now at 10. Leg extensions, started at 12, I'm now at 15. Dumbell pullover, started with 9 reps, I'm squeezing in the 10th one. Military press, a 10 lb increase, and same bench press. I hope I don't get out of track again. I am seeing a bit of progress, but I want to see much much more.
Mau.

Well, this is what's been new.

I have been working out daily.
Tuesdays and Thursdays, just cardio. Run like hell.
Monday, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I have a routine, but I can't recall exactly what I'm doing. It's a list that I keep at work. That's where my gym is at.
I will post it as soon as I can.
I have tried to keep a caloric deficit, having fish oil, some EC (no aspirin), and whey after lifting.
Oh, and I'm at about 213 lbs. Pictures to come soon, ish, maybe.

Not too much, but
Deads, 150, bench, 110, military, 100, status: awesome.

Well, that's something.

I have taken a bit of a different approach this week.
Instead of being so much a cardio bunny, I try to keep to building workouts three times per week, and run the other two.
The workout that I am following are a complete clusterfuck. I still have to get used to them. I will post it as soon as I can.
After getting shitty readings from my scale, I stopped updating my whiteboard much. So I started keeping track (ish) at work, with one old scale they have there. Yesterday I was at 215 lbs in the day, confirmed by a 216 lbs at night after dinner at home on my shitty scale.
I have noticed a few changes, though slight, but still enough to keep me going.
First, arms more defined. Well, duh.
Second: Top four abs are more defined, and belly/waist fat decreasing. Yay.
Third, manboobs decreased slightly. This always bothered me, though I do have pretty large pectoral muscles, but still.
Fourth, increased cardiovascular resistance. Not smoking much helps a lot.
I think this time there is a good possibility of me getting where I want to be. I mean, I got no reason to break these habits. I work out during lunch at work, and I get to leave as soon as I am done. If there is any personal commitments, they are still doable.
So, yes, I will post pictures following this update. Some time soon. Ish. Maybe later today.
Mau.

Jesus Christ Doritos what the fuck

Kinda out of control

God damn. I was at 218, and over one shitty weekend I'm back at about 224. What the fuck. Just because I eat? I must be doing something wrong. I don't wanna starve myself either. That stuff isn't worth it.

This doesn't make too much sense...

Pancake tuesday

Today was pancake Tuesday, which happens to be my 9 year aniversary in Canada. I am proud and happy to be here.
Today I realised how bad it is for me to eat heavy food in the mornings. I have got used to having a little bit of cereal. I had pancakes today at work, and boy, did it screw me up.
I couldn't work out. I had two ECs, and just rested.
Tomorrow I'll get back on the ball.
Also, my scale seems to be fucked up. I'll have to change the times I go on the scale at and go on the one that's at work.
Numbers and pictures still to come.
Mau.

Today, I graduated myself to the 35 lb pushup rows AND the 30lb curl/press. I am kinda proud.
I have capoeira tonight, I don't know if I'll be awake enough to post numbers later tonight. I'll try, and I'll try to post a picture too.

Also, before I forget:

That day that I felt like shit (legs shaking, really beat, right after working out) I had an ECA before working out. That isn't a good idea. I will have the 12pm ECA after working out, so about 1pm.

Snap.

Okay, numbers.
January 29th: 219.8 lbs, no work out, 2 ECA, no caloric deficit.
January 30th: 220.3lbs, no workout, 3 ECA, no caloric deficit.
January 31st: 220.8lbs, light cardio. I was really beat this day, for some reason. I remember I changed something, but I forget what. I do remember (because I recorded it) that I overate this day.
Then I skipped recording a few days, due to a slight case of alcohol poisoning of my brothe.r (friday, hospital visit), Saturday (that fucked up not sleep night that screwed this day up) and the sunday after that clusterfuck that happened.
Now:
Monday, February 4th: 219.1 lbs, worked out, 2 ECA, caloric deficit. However, I skipped capoeira.
Tuesday, February 5th: 217.6 lbs, worked out, 2 ECA, caloric deficit. I didnt have dinner this night. It was mildly upsetting. But I was really tired.
Wednesday February 6th, today: 220.0 lbs. I don't think I overate. However, I might have a lot of water weight. As far as I know, I drank about 350 ml of chocolate milk, and about one litre of water within the last two hours. And I am still thirsty. I worked out twice: once very hard at work, and then capoeira. For a change, I ate before capoeira. I figured I might as well show what I can do in the right conditions, instead of going to capoeira on a caloric deficit as when I work out at work. I had 3 ECA, one at 8 am, another one at 12, and another one at 4.

I am thinking of upping the dose of ephedrine, but I am scared. I'll ask around. I don't think I will.
Mau.
Pictures will be coming up soon.

Work out until it hurts?

Holy shit. My legs are shaking and I feel like puking. I didn't push that hard, but I am assuming that it is that hard for my current standing. I feel kinda old.
Numbers to come later.
Mau.

Sent from my iPhone

Tuesday

219.2 lbs
No work out
No significant caloric deficit
ECA x2

Monday

219.4 lbs
W/O x2
Eca x2
Caloric deficit.
Weekend overheating does have a big influence. I gotta control it. Either skip some meals if I'm gonna eat something large, or distribute it. Also, alcoholic beverages are big caloric bombs usually.

Latest numbers

Jan 20th, 221 lb, no w/o, no eca, no diet.
Jan 20th, 226 full
Jan 21st 219.8 wo, eca x2, diet
Jan 22nd, 219.6 wo, eca x2, diet
Jan 23rd, 218.9, wo, eca x2, diet, protein x3
Jan 24th 216.7 wo, eca x2
Jan 25th, no diet, no w/o, 1 eca, 221
Jan 26th, 222.1 no diet no eca, w/o

Almost back with the numbers.

I am debating whether I should post work-out of the day and at night current weights on both the blog and on facebook.
I was scared recently. I weighted myself and the number was 226 pointsomething. The fear of being fat again, of not looking as well as I did when I was at 200, it came back. I took a bit of a drastic move: ECA and regular work-outs, as well as a caloric deficit during most of my day.
I have been doing that for the past week and the numbers have decreased. Saturday: capoeira. Sunday: open gym at the gymnastics club. Monday, work out, Tuesday work out, Wednesday work-out and capoeira, Thursday (today) work out.
My stamina and energy levels have been pretty decent, however two things were changed yesterday that changed my energy levels today. I need to isolate both variables to see which made me feel so exhausted today.
Yesterday, I worked out twice. At work once, and capoeira. I also had a heavy breakfast this morning. Usually I deal fine with that, but I gotta see what's happening.
I might be getting sticky sleep again, due to not taking sugars again. There, a third variable.
Something I gotta figure out is if your body will burn through meals faster after working out. I was starving almost right after breakfast today, and given that I worked out twice, I don't know.
Anyway, I gotta keep doing this. I wanna look my best again. Maybe it's my self esteem, but being at about 218, I look pretty damn good already, but still, not my best.
Scarecrow.

This, on the other hand...

Is bad news. My weight is out of control again. I'm not happy with what I look like. However, my state of mind has greatly improved. I am off pills and mostly off smokes. I think i am doing a lot better.
Mau.

Back on the ball, ish.

I'm nowhere as strong as I was last year. Bad eating habits and smoking caught up with me, and I'm sick of it.
This week, I've had only two smokes, and I intend on having my lungs clean very soon. I'm also trying to work out every day. I figured that if I want to be a certain way, I might as well act like it- perfect.
So, I'm back on this.
Last night, 95.7 kilograms.
We'll see where this goes.

Soon, the game starts again.

Summer finals are almost around the corner. As soon as the time comes, I will quit smoking, start working out like crazy, and I will find work and save money to try to move out.
I know I can do these things. They are definite sure goals that I can make happen.
I have one month to do what I couldn't do because of my irresponsibility last semester. So, I gotta rush things a bit and see just what I'm made of.
Scarecrow.

Starting from zero.

All my strength seems to be mostly gone. All the work I put into my body are all gone. Today I worked out. Not much though. I couldn't lift as much, and my shoulders hurt.
Light weights, little endurance, zero all over again.
95 kilos isn't something to be proud of.
Mau.

First and last ECA run.

I tried ECA stacking yesterday.
ECA stands for Ephedrine (pseudo), Caffeine, and Aspirin. The mixture of these speeds up your metabolism, acts as a bit of a hunger supressant, and gives you a bit of an energy boost.
The feeling was okay. I had 30mg of pseudo-ephedrine, one max strength aspirin, and 200mg of caffeine, once before breakfast and once before lunch.
I was warm, I was energised (not jumpy) and the effect lasted until I was done school, which was just perfect.
I ran in the morning (after the first stack) and worked out after the second stack.
It's an okay thing.
Unfortunately, I was put on concerta for my adhd, which somewhat is not good mixing with stimulants (ephedrine and lots of caffeine...) which makes that my first and last ECA stack.
At least, I think that's the last.
I want to experiment, but it's too early for it.

Now, the work out part:
yesterday I did my usual run in the morning. When I got to school, I worked mosly upper body.
I did bicep curls (first time I do that shit, I disliked it, but I gotta work what I got), bench press but not with one long bar but two dumbells, I did... push ups, crunches... I forget what else. I was pretty dead.
After that, I ate and went to class. Sweaty and all.
I'm gonna work out today before class again.
Bye!
Mau.

Tomorrow, experimenting again.

Tomorrow I will get going again. Running like a motherfucker.
But I have done some research on some enhancers. Some people recommend them and others are scared of trying them.
I guess I won't be part of the second group without at least knowing what they are like.
Tomorrow I will post results.
Mau.
PS: 97 kilos. This is really bad. I gotta get back on the ball. I can't be the ball.

Enjoyable end of things.

On the health department of life, things haven't been all that great. Working full-time allows no time for a person to fully rest, now mind you working out. I'm fat and sick. However, I might enroll into school during summer. Which would be great- I mean, I will try to live in hamilton. I also will try to work out at school.
I hope things happen.
I wanna make them happen.
Mau.

Crazy weekend

I left my house on Friday and stayed in Hamilton with a friend.
Ate, drank, whatever. Saturday I worked out chest and triceps with Lucas. However, something... different... happened. My legs started to cramp. And as of lately, my legs feel very tired. I'm beginning to think this might be a sign of my anemia coming back. Goddamn it. I really was hoping it would go away. I don't wanna see another doctor.
Now, the cough I had, it's gone. I know it is because, well, I smoked a lot during this weekend, and I'm not coughing. I knew there had to be something good to talk about.
Shit, it's 3:36 am. I gotta get on my way to work at 5:40 am. I haven't been able to sleep.
I hope I'm not as fucked as I think I am.
Mau

I haven't worked out in a while

I'm at 94kg. Eh, could be worse. I'm just getting better from that annoying cough I've had for the past month. I'm happy about it finally going away. I need to get back in a routine.
Mau.

yeah...

I'm not feeling good.
I'm coughing a lot and this damn cough refuses to go away.
I haven't worked out and I feel fat.
Mau.