Tuesday

219.2 lbs
No work out
No significant caloric deficit
ECA x2

Monday

219.4 lbs
W/O x2
Eca x2
Caloric deficit.
Weekend overheating does have a big influence. I gotta control it. Either skip some meals if I'm gonna eat something large, or distribute it. Also, alcoholic beverages are big caloric bombs usually.

Latest numbers

Jan 20th, 221 lb, no w/o, no eca, no diet.
Jan 20th, 226 full
Jan 21st 219.8 wo, eca x2, diet
Jan 22nd, 219.6 wo, eca x2, diet
Jan 23rd, 218.9, wo, eca x2, diet, protein x3
Jan 24th 216.7 wo, eca x2
Jan 25th, no diet, no w/o, 1 eca, 221
Jan 26th, 222.1 no diet no eca, w/o

Almost back with the numbers.

I am debating whether I should post work-out of the day and at night current weights on both the blog and on facebook.
I was scared recently. I weighted myself and the number was 226 pointsomething. The fear of being fat again, of not looking as well as I did when I was at 200, it came back. I took a bit of a drastic move: ECA and regular work-outs, as well as a caloric deficit during most of my day.
I have been doing that for the past week and the numbers have decreased. Saturday: capoeira. Sunday: open gym at the gymnastics club. Monday, work out, Tuesday work out, Wednesday work-out and capoeira, Thursday (today) work out.
My stamina and energy levels have been pretty decent, however two things were changed yesterday that changed my energy levels today. I need to isolate both variables to see which made me feel so exhausted today.
Yesterday, I worked out twice. At work once, and capoeira. I also had a heavy breakfast this morning. Usually I deal fine with that, but I gotta see what's happening.
I might be getting sticky sleep again, due to not taking sugars again. There, a third variable.
Something I gotta figure out is if your body will burn through meals faster after working out. I was starving almost right after breakfast today, and given that I worked out twice, I don't know.
Anyway, I gotta keep doing this. I wanna look my best again. Maybe it's my self esteem, but being at about 218, I look pretty damn good already, but still, not my best.
Scarecrow.

This, on the other hand...

Is bad news. My weight is out of control again. I'm not happy with what I look like. However, my state of mind has greatly improved. I am off pills and mostly off smokes. I think i am doing a lot better.
Mau.

Back on the ball, ish.

I'm nowhere as strong as I was last year. Bad eating habits and smoking caught up with me, and I'm sick of it.
This week, I've had only two smokes, and I intend on having my lungs clean very soon. I'm also trying to work out every day. I figured that if I want to be a certain way, I might as well act like it- perfect.
So, I'm back on this.
Last night, 95.7 kilograms.
We'll see where this goes.

Soon, the game starts again.

Summer finals are almost around the corner. As soon as the time comes, I will quit smoking, start working out like crazy, and I will find work and save money to try to move out.
I know I can do these things. They are definite sure goals that I can make happen.
I have one month to do what I couldn't do because of my irresponsibility last semester. So, I gotta rush things a bit and see just what I'm made of.
Scarecrow.

Starting from zero.

All my strength seems to be mostly gone. All the work I put into my body are all gone. Today I worked out. Not much though. I couldn't lift as much, and my shoulders hurt.
Light weights, little endurance, zero all over again.
95 kilos isn't something to be proud of.
Mau.

First and last ECA run.

I tried ECA stacking yesterday.
ECA stands for Ephedrine (pseudo), Caffeine, and Aspirin. The mixture of these speeds up your metabolism, acts as a bit of a hunger supressant, and gives you a bit of an energy boost.
The feeling was okay. I had 30mg of pseudo-ephedrine, one max strength aspirin, and 200mg of caffeine, once before breakfast and once before lunch.
I was warm, I was energised (not jumpy) and the effect lasted until I was done school, which was just perfect.
I ran in the morning (after the first stack) and worked out after the second stack.
It's an okay thing.
Unfortunately, I was put on concerta for my adhd, which somewhat is not good mixing with stimulants (ephedrine and lots of caffeine...) which makes that my first and last ECA stack.
At least, I think that's the last.
I want to experiment, but it's too early for it.

Now, the work out part:
yesterday I did my usual run in the morning. When I got to school, I worked mosly upper body.
I did bicep curls (first time I do that shit, I disliked it, but I gotta work what I got), bench press but not with one long bar but two dumbells, I did... push ups, crunches... I forget what else. I was pretty dead.
After that, I ate and went to class. Sweaty and all.
I'm gonna work out today before class again.
Bye!
Mau.

Tomorrow, experimenting again.

Tomorrow I will get going again. Running like a motherfucker.
But I have done some research on some enhancers. Some people recommend them and others are scared of trying them.
I guess I won't be part of the second group without at least knowing what they are like.
Tomorrow I will post results.
Mau.
PS: 97 kilos. This is really bad. I gotta get back on the ball. I can't be the ball.

Enjoyable end of things.

On the health department of life, things haven't been all that great. Working full-time allows no time for a person to fully rest, now mind you working out. I'm fat and sick. However, I might enroll into school during summer. Which would be great- I mean, I will try to live in hamilton. I also will try to work out at school.
I hope things happen.
I wanna make them happen.
Mau.

Crazy weekend

I left my house on Friday and stayed in Hamilton with a friend.
Ate, drank, whatever. Saturday I worked out chest and triceps with Lucas. However, something... different... happened. My legs started to cramp. And as of lately, my legs feel very tired. I'm beginning to think this might be a sign of my anemia coming back. Goddamn it. I really was hoping it would go away. I don't wanna see another doctor.
Now, the cough I had, it's gone. I know it is because, well, I smoked a lot during this weekend, and I'm not coughing. I knew there had to be something good to talk about.
Shit, it's 3:36 am. I gotta get on my way to work at 5:40 am. I haven't been able to sleep.
I hope I'm not as fucked as I think I am.
Mau

I haven't worked out in a while

I'm at 94kg. Eh, could be worse. I'm just getting better from that annoying cough I've had for the past month. I'm happy about it finally going away. I need to get back in a routine.
Mau.

yeah...

I'm not feeling good.
I'm coughing a lot and this damn cough refuses to go away.
I haven't worked out and I feel fat.
Mau.

Yeah, sick.

Sick, coughing, my body hurts.
I worked out today. It's hard. I felt like puking.

This is it for capoeira for a while

I can't keep leeching off my teacher.
It makes me sad that I gotta leave because I can't afford training, but I really can't.
It sucks.
I guess now there's no event or batizado per say.
There's just me.

piao

I'm at 95 I believe.
However, I've noticed that my stomach is a tiny bit more defined.
I haven't worked out yesterday nor today.
I didn't go to capoeira tonight either.
I wasn't feeling too good. I got home and crashed.
Sometimes we need rest.
Life is tasteless without a good sleep.
Mau.

93.5 kg I believe.
I'm not shaving until I'm back at 91. I hope it's soon.
Mau.

Back on the ball

Cardio, rowing, 10 minutes. (this sucks)
Then sets of abs (8 variations) and push ups rows (once each side counts as one) holding 25 lb weights, 10, 8, 6.
Pull ups, back extension. I'm pretty dead.
Mau

Today's class was eventful

My teacher's nephew did a work out class. It was good.

God damn it.

95 kilos.
Four over.
I have over eaten and I haven't worked out.
I don't feel happy about this. School starting will be a great thing for me. Hopefully.
Mauricio.

This sucks.

I've gained a lot of weight in these past weeks. I feel kinda gross.

God damn it.

Holidays always hit me like a brick in the head.
I'm sick, I've overeaten almost every day, the gym is closed at mohawk... I don't know what to do.
As soon as I get better, I gotta start again. This was really not in the plan. I was all happy that I lasted most of the year without getting sick.
Fuck.
Mau.

I havent done much lately other than eat and do school.

Exams are always a pain. Currently I'm at 93 kilograms. Cookies, crackers, stuff that wasn't in the plan. I need time to rest my mind (where is my mind, pixies) and get back on the ball.
Jordan wants to try and do as best as we can in three weeks- between the end of this semester and the beginning of the next one.
I think it's possible.
Mau.

I doubt I will be working out for the following three weeks. Things are really stepping up. I am still watching what I eat, though I'm not necessarily eating paleo. Exposure to outside food and not cooking at home does not help much. I cant starve myself to death either. I really like being alive.
Mau.

I haven't kept up with this blog as much, but I'm still working out on a somewhat regular basis.
Yesterday was a significant work out. Today I worked out at 8 am because one of my classes was cancelled.
I got too much in my head.
Mau.

Friday

I have been eating semi-normal again. Carbs, veggies, meats, everything.
I'm at 93 kg. I hope this doesn't get out of control. I hate to admit, but I am scared of getting fat again.
Mau.

I think I underate.

I should never under-eat. It's bad. Today I was working out and after little time, I felt weak and tired. That is really not like me.
Mau.