Shit.

So, my efforts so far have been wasted. Or experience. Whichever you wanna put it. I gained a lot of weight and, for my own mental health, I quit my job. I'm now looking for work while trying (and somewhat failing) being active. I tried dieting with EC stacks and I did lose some weight. But a week of inactivity came and I'm back to my bad weight.
So, yeah. I'll keep trying.
Mau.

Well then.

So, I'm tired of giving excuses. The huge change of metabolic pace is really screwing with me. I went from an optimal shape and regular habits to a study environment with little working out, and then to a sitting job that tires me for 9 hours to then want to go home and just relax and do nothing. I'm worried. You know how people look forward to fitting their swimming suits for summer? Yeah, that's me, but also to fit my snow clothes well for snowboarding season. I don't wanna look like crap and cause further strain to my knees for being overweight.

So I took back the ECAs. Today I took one when I left home. Next one should be at 10 and then at 2 pm.

This should help my body at least burn a bit off while I sit here and the 2pm one should help me get a bit more energy before I leave.

Also, I have been cutting sweets and dairy. 

I hope I can lose something. I don't wanna get any more repetitive strain injuries due to being overweight.

I also want to look good for my girlfriend. She's pretty hot.

Mau.

So... Algonquin on Friday.

Last weekend I made arrangements with Martin to go backpacking to Algonquin, our first campsite. While it's really fun, I don't want to be the laughing stock. So I have upped the cardio and the dieting back. I don't know how long I can keep it. It's very difficult, especially when my brother keeps bringing junk food to the house... But I seem to be back at 232 from 237 empty last weekend. I gotta keep it up while taking care of my joints while I'm pushing things this hard, especially with a backpacking trip coming up.

Today I stopped making fun of elliptical machines. I got on an elliptical to avoid the impact to my left knee in the morning, and will be running when I get back.

I got to get my pull up strength back. For this, I need to keep doing assisted pullups while I get down to a weight that I can actually work with.

Oh man, this much work to make up for the over-junk-eating for the final semester.

Welp, here we go again. Again.

Mau.

ALSO I WANT TO CONQUER MY STUPID FEAR AT THAT ROCK IN MAGGIE LAKE.

I'll make this happen.

back on the ball?

Its tough to get back to the same level of activity I was in last year. I must be in much better mental condition. My physical condition is shitty, but I am getting back on top of things.

Last friday, or two fridays ago, not sure, out of desperation, I went to a local gym and paid half my paycheque up front for six months of gym. I couldn't have done a better thing. The hip problems I developed at work from sitting all day (or from longboarding, one of the two, or both) have dimished. 

Today I saw a light of inspiration: some old dude lifting more than I can. White hair, wrinkly face, perfect body development.

I want that when I'm old.

Mau

Oh snap, it's summer.

And last years' achievements are gone with the wind. 8 months of hardcore studying (due to fear of failure with graduation upon me) can seriously fuck a person over. I mean, in those 8 months, and much more intensely in the last 4, I put just under 40 lbs. School food, donuts, chocolate bars, and energy drinks really took a toll on me.

But don't get me wrong. Food is food- and I needed it. My brain works significantly better with sugar. And not holding back on my food intake helped me be able to study my ass off.

So, long story short, I graduated. I passed everything. I'm working now, and looking forward to get into university.

The downside of things is... I got a sitting job. The line of my butt was going to disappear from sitting so much.

Last friday I paid a 6 month contract up-front at a local gym. Yesterday was my second day. I worked my back. Today idk what I will do. But it will be epic.

I'm at 236 lbs empty.

Mau.

well, fuck.

It seems I have been busy with the concerns of finding work and enjoying my life instead of worrying about my body, and today I realice the toll it's taken.
I have not worked out consistently since the begining of last semester. Now, out of desperation, I thought I'd go for a run. I can't run at a constant pace.
My body feels even deformed. Kind of a bummer now that it's getting warm.

Oh, crap

Yeah, I've noticed that during school I wain tons of weight. This past semester I have put on about 30 lbs. Especially around finals. I can't afford starving my brain.
Exams should be in two weeks. I hope things go well. When things are done, I gotta get back in the ball. I must say that my self-esteem isn't doing well. I've gained too much weight, am being inactive (other than school, that is) and my clothes don't fit well. Currently at about 230 lbs.

I'm hoping I'm back on the ball.

On a both mental and physical health note, I think having that new start with Megan has encouraged me to get back on the ball. My mind seems clearer (though I still have concentration problems) and I have got back into working out.
I've noticed that my ankle still hurts a lot, but it doesn't get either better or worse. And the pain goes away after I am warm. So I've started running again, today being, I think, the 4th day in a row, and am already feeling differences.
I hope I can keep this up to get back to awesome again!