This sucks.

I've gained a lot of weight in these past weeks. I feel kinda gross.

God damn it.

Holidays always hit me like a brick in the head.
I'm sick, I've overeaten almost every day, the gym is closed at mohawk... I don't know what to do.
As soon as I get better, I gotta start again. This was really not in the plan. I was all happy that I lasted most of the year without getting sick.
Fuck.
Mau.

I havent done much lately other than eat and do school.

Exams are always a pain. Currently I'm at 93 kilograms. Cookies, crackers, stuff that wasn't in the plan. I need time to rest my mind (where is my mind, pixies) and get back on the ball.
Jordan wants to try and do as best as we can in three weeks- between the end of this semester and the beginning of the next one.
I think it's possible.
Mau.

I doubt I will be working out for the following three weeks. Things are really stepping up. I am still watching what I eat, though I'm not necessarily eating paleo. Exposure to outside food and not cooking at home does not help much. I cant starve myself to death either. I really like being alive.
Mau.

I haven't kept up with this blog as much, but I'm still working out on a somewhat regular basis.
Yesterday was a significant work out. Today I worked out at 8 am because one of my classes was cancelled.
I got too much in my head.
Mau.

Friday

I have been eating semi-normal again. Carbs, veggies, meats, everything.
I'm at 93 kg. I hope this doesn't get out of control. I hate to admit, but I am scared of getting fat again.
Mau.

I think I underate.

I should never under-eat. It's bad. Today I was working out and after little time, I felt weak and tired. That is really not like me.
Mau.

Push-ups, I beat my teacher.

Fuck yeah.
I won't feel my arms, but I did it. By waaay more push ups.
Tomorrow I'll work out with Jordan and maybe Jessi, the jamaican wrestler. I gotta check on her, she was having a rough day yesterday.

Lack of will power

Lately I haven't been eating Paleo, but just... generally weird. I haven't got groceries because, well, i've ran out of money. Fuck.
Mau.

Today...

Today I woke up late. Yes, well, avoiding home, mostly.
I woke up, then went for a run, and then I got back I did deadlifts and push ups. Not much.
I then went shopping and after that I went straight to capoeira.

My back hurts...

I might have overkilled it on Tuesday, but it's getting better.
Also, Jessi sat on me and nearly killed me. She wants us to spar some day. I don't wanna get beat up.
My back hurts...
Mau.

My good old apples.

Apples, apples, apples. I can't believe the crazyness that this game started with.
It had been forever that I blogged right after working out while holding an apple in my hand.
Lately I've felt lots of good results. I'm very happy.
I've been staying late at school working out and doing homework. So I think I'm doing good. If I go home early, things won't be as productive.
I got a midterm tomorrow and another one on friday. I hope they go well.
Mau.

The ThanksGiving aftermath.

This weekend I've successfully undone everything I've worked for.
I've eaten sugars, fats, carbs, everything. In massive amounts. Today is the first day of clean up after the thanks giving mess.
I did enjoy eating with my family. Thanksgiving was the one dinner that we all had together without fighting at all. It was very enjoyable. I wish they were like that.
But alright, back to the game. I was surprised I got some acrobatics thingy down. Goddamn it I was surprised. I gotta work on that again. I really don't wanna lose that.

Alrighty

I haven't updated this in a while.
I've been working out on a regular basis again, and its been over a month since I've been attempting to eat paleo style.
It's very hard though. Not the eating part, but having my family simply support me and the things I do. When it comes down to it, I'm alone on my quest.
My brother has successfully wasted 200 dollars on food supplements, proteins, and whatever... when he drinks meal replacements as a regular beverage WITH his breakfast and stuff. I have tried to help, but he just won't listen.
There are certain things I have done one by one that have given me very fast noticeable results.

First, quit smoking. Lung capacity increases like hell when you do. After one smoke, I wasn't able to run much.

Second, drinking often is bad. I never really went for it, but I've ran with a can of beer in my stomach, and it feels heavy.

Third, dropping soft drinks. On average, they contain 40-something grams of sugar. Might as well drink water.

Fourth, stop buying sweets and stuff. If you don't buy them, you won't eat them.
And you'll have tons of money to spend on other things.

Fifth, bring lunch with you.
People say eating paleo is expensive... but for me it really isn't. It's very affordable. It's just hard to switch. The lunch I take with me is usually beef and apples. Weekly, we're looking at about 25 dollars.
If I was buying lunch at school, I would be looking at about 50 dollars minimum.
I've dropped lots of weight, I'm currently (I think) 93 kilograms.

damn

Wednesday

I attempted to teach two guys some capoeira in school to see if I get to train outside of class. I really don't see it happening, but it's worth the try.
My weight is still low, so is my food intake.
Last night I had a shit ton of carbs. I gotta clear that out. It was my cheat day, which I doubt I'll be able to afford for long.
Mau.

October 3rd 2011

I think I've stopped losing weight. I'm at 95 kilos, trying to eat paleo style still.
My food intake is somewhat low, but it's very good. My hunger is tolerable, and my energy levels are somewhat stable.
My mom was scared of me getting vitamin deficiencies from eating little, so I bought a bottle of centrum forte and am going to see a doctor in the near future to see if my crap blood levels are doing fine. I know that, with all the meat I've eaten, my iron levels should be doing great.
Other than mild lactose intolerance from this diet, I doubt there is any negative things about it.
However, yes, there's the social factor of not being able to eat out with people much. But whatever.
Mau.

OHMYGOD

Left, right now.
Right, two months ago.

Wow, I'm surprised.

I wrote this blog and it didnt post...
However. Still eating paleo. Tomorrow I'm going to class.
I worked out today. I wanna be the best I can.
Mau.

Headaches.

I think I may be experiencing carb withdrawal symptoms. Headaches mostly. But they have been getting better. I had a tablespoon of olive oil today with breakfast and another one with my lunch, and my energy levels seem pretty constant. I can't believe I'm doing this. My weight today was at 97kg on my shitty inaccurate scale. Seems a long way from 207 kg.
Mau.

The new blogger interface is... confusing, for now. Today was a strange day. I'm still adjusting to trying to eat paleo style. I didn't keep in mind, however, hydration. Today I had a headache that only went away after 750 ml of water. Then when I got home, I crashed. I texted Karim and asked what was going on, he said I should increase my fat intake. SOOOO I had 2/3 of a can of coconut milk. That stuff would taste amazing if it was blended with ice and honey. Anyways, for next time, a spoonful of olive oil will do the trick. Coconut milk seems a good idea of protein shakes and stuff like that.
I skipped capoeira tonight due to that headache. When I woke up, it was gone, and then I had coconut milk.
Tomorrow I intend on working out at school. I'll see what happens.
Mau.

Hm, Tuesday night.

I've been eating paleo style for the past few days, and I fucked it up today by having whey protein and a sausage, which apparently is processed. But it's fine, I'll keep at it tomorrow.
Today I did some push ups and some other stuff. I really wanna be good for Saturday's capoeira class. I don't feel good enough for this week.
I really should start paying attention to my injuries. My left shoulder is annoying the shit out of me and I still cant feel my middle fingers. Typing feels odd.
ANYWAYS.
Bye =D

What a month and a half.

Alright, I'm finally back.
I went to work away for about two months. Or a month and a half, I lost track of time.
My work was mostly physical, and I never really had time to eat a decent meal. So, that ends up in fat loss, since I did keep eating proteins almost every day.
I'm right now at about 200 pounds. Not bad, compared to my previous 226.
I can do pull ups, I can train in a much easier fashion, and I also am attempting to switch my diet to paleolythic diet.
Apparently everybody has noticed that I've lost weight. But it's not something I necessarily like to hear.
"You lost weight? That's good =D"
After having two people I know affected by eating disorders (and maybe three, my Chinese friend might have been), it's not something I like to hear. I'm not into this to lose weight, but to be the best I can.

Ah, overworked.

My legs are really tired.
However, I did work out today.
I did some weights, then ran, and then had my protein.
I'm dead.
I'll post more details as to my work out today.
Mau

Pshh

Today I didn't work out that much. However my legs are overworked from every day lately.
I gotta run more.
My right knee is swollen, idk what from.
Today I rode to Karim's house, then down to my class, and then back.
Class itself wasn't that bad. It just sucked that I felt too full.
But it's alright. Wednesday should be better.
Mau

Mau on wheels

Alright, lately I've been out a lot. Riding, walking, tanning, whatever. I love the douchy feeling of having all my body tan. Or well, whatever is socially acceptable to be tan. I've ridden my bike a lot. I've been working out in class and sometimes with Karim.
I haven't ran as often lately. I really gotta get back into it.
Oh, however, I do think I'm looking better...
Mau.

Good day, Mau, good day.

Today I ran when I woke up. Then I went to Karim's where we warmed up on the pull-up bars. I really need gloves. My hands are blistered and in pain.
Then we did a bunch of push ups. However, we didn't last long. After that, I got home and rode my bike to get guineapig food. I felt like riding more, so I went to downtown and then all the way to the lift bridge. Theeeen I headed back.
I think it was tough, but I can definitely do it again.
Mau.

Monday night

Lately, it seems that class isn't so... hard? but what I lack is the mentality for it. It feels that class drags. It's long, it's boring. I hate jumping against a wall. I hate doing pushups and sit ups. I mean, I do those at home. Idk, maybe it's just me.
Mau

Sunday

No run, but I didn't eat that much today. I was out in Toronto for the entire day. It was kinda fun. Not very pleasant all of it, but it was fun.
Tomorrow morning I'm running.
Mau

yeah....

no difference at all. today there was nothing special.

Thursday

Well, today I got my bike back. I just gotta put on a new chain, and I'm all good. :3
Tomorrow I'll help my friend Josh (massive ginger dude) move with his girlfriend. Best of luck to them.
Today I ran. Then I went to pick my bike up. I gotta get used again to my bike. It's been so long...
Mau.

Well, I'm rather happy my four top abs are there.

Wednesday night

I went to capoeira class tonight. I skipped Monday and haven't ran lately. My back really sucks.
Anyways, I went to class, and I fixed two bikes. I can't wait to get my other bike from the bike shop. I could reaaally use it.
I love that bike too much.
Mau.

Friday night.

I didn't run today. Wednesday's class really hurt my back. I don't wanna end up with a permanent injury.
Tomorrow I will take it easy in class.
Mau.

Post-run

Hey, Mau here.
Wednesday afternoon. My back feels a bit tight. I really gotta stop getting Ariel to stay online talking to me for so long. It's ruining both our body schedules (whether or not she would like to admit it xD).
Today's run wasn't as good as yesterday's. I stopped over my optimum, and it sucks. But I found some comfort in knowing that the air quality was next to shit, and that I still ran.
I intend on doing some deadlifts today too. I really want my back to be as strong as before I tried to impress my teacher.
Later

Aw yeah.

Today I ran. It was a really good run, I think. On an empty stomach, and had protein right after. Good start.
I just finished a deadlift workout.
I did a set of 20 with... 50 pounds plus the bar.
Then a set of 15 with 70 pounds plus the bar, and then 10 with 90 pounds plus the bar. It's not much, but I did injure my back a few days ago, and want to strengthen it back up.
I also did some wide pushups and lateral dumbell raises.
Oh, and also, working out only in boxer briefs is really comfortable.
Later!

Monday..

I didn't run today. I did fight the bleh and cleaned the kitchen and went to capoeira. It was a tough class. I'm tired.
I got a really stupid goal. Somebody suggested some boxers I should wear (lol...) and I wanna look good in those.
God damn it. It's gonna be tough. I feel like... a very inactive version of Betty White.
I'm doing it. It's on.

I haven't worked out...

But I am getting back into it as soon as sound of music festival is done.
I've been walking home from downtown after work. I guess that counts as cardio.
Mau.

Ah, sun.

Today I didn't Run on my own. I did, however, kinda swam with some people and then trained. It was fun. I also had my protein.
Later,
Mau.

I've been running lately.

It's been over a year since I first started this blogging business. I've managed to separate the personal crap and and the health-related stuff and give each one a separate place.
Today's run was kind of hard. Running on an empty stomach is more complicated than it was last year. However, I think I'm getting back into it.
This Saturday there won't be capoeira class, so I gotta work out on my own.
Later.

I've ran.

But not much. My weight has fluctuated from 107 kilograms to 103. I gotta be under 100 this year.

I am disgusted an unhappy.

Last night I went out to the movies with Jill. It was fun. I ate a shitload of white chocolate and macadamia nut cookies and dr pepper. And chips. And I regretted it last night and this morning.
I had to wake up at 5 am to get ready and go to work with my dad. I woke up on time, alright. I woke up because I barely slept. My stomach didn't let me sleep well. I went to the bathroom to see if I could puke. I wasn't able to. Then I sat down wondering if I could puke it out or whatever for about 20 minutes. I water loaded, and that kinda flushed my system. However...
Today my amazing dad started calling me fat in front of these stupid latinos. They understood. I was telling him to stop it and to tell me later. Fucker... I felt like utter shit. I left without saying bye. I went to the train station and called Mel, the only person whom kinda knows from experience what I felt. However, I wasn't able to talk about it. I hung up and went somewhere where I could be either alone or at a reasonable distance from people.
I hate what I look like. I really do. All that I wish I was... I'm not. And I'm sick of it.
I don't wanna see my dad again. In fact, I don't wanna see everyone. I wish I could just disappear and die alone: a fat happy bastard.

I ran today.

I took it easy. I can't run as last year. And it's cold still, and the wind was against me.
Excuses, excuses.

Wow, it's been over a year...

And what I had done last year is lost. I got to get back in my best shape again, and I have to beat it.
Self consciousness is still big. I've looked at male models and then I see me... I can't find any attractiveness in me. I got to work on that.
I haven't ran lately. The weather's bad, and I've felt like shit due to the stupid event going on and me not being there.
Anyways... It's time to start again.

Tough weather.

I just got back from running. Or well... half-ass-running. Today was a wet day again and the win was blowing against me on the way back. My stomach was fully empty, so my start pace was very slow. I walked a lot... I'm slightly disappointed.
Yesterday's run was a lot better.
Anyways... warmer days will come. I can't wait.
Mau.

Post-class.

I decided I'm not dropping out. I am, however, keeping my distance and always looking out.
My teacher didn't say hi to me. I don't know what the hell is going on, but I know it IS going on. Whatever. I'm there to train. I'm not there to care.
Mau.

Rainy run

I hadn't blogged right after a run in quite a while.
I haven't been too happy lately. In capoeira, I nearly got beat up, and I still don't know what about. It sucks that I have nobody in my family or anyone else close to me that I could talk to about that. I mean, what the hell is it gonna sound like: "mom, i just got beat up, give me the bus pass, i'm going tomorrow."
I ran today, same distance as before. I was proud that I didn't stop a single time on the way there. The way back, however, was more tiring. But it's okay.
I don't know if I'm going to class tonight. I don't know if I'm coming back at all. Fucker, you really stepped over the limit, and, know what? The others noticed.

I don't think I'll work out today.
I'm bruised and don't feel happy about it.
Later.

Exams are done

And last night I went for another first run.
It was cold, but it was okay.
What worries me is that I went to run out of being upset. And that I'm still sick from about... a month ago. I hope it's nothing serious. I hope that it's got nothing to do with me not finishing my antibiotics.
Tonight I should go for another run.
I'm having some other serious problems.
My teacher is gonna be seriously pissed off at me. I can't do our event, and it's, I think, next week. I don't know what to do about it. In addition to that, Williams closed out of nowhere and with no heads up. What the hell am I suppossed to do now. They didn't even give us a heads up to find work, so again I'm unemployed.
And with that, my possibilities of catching up my bills are gone with the wind.

Ah, Mau, what are you doing?

I haven't worked out. I'm stressed with exams. I'll get on the ball as soon as my last exam is done.
Mau.

I feel really fat, to be honest. School will be done in two weeks from now. At least I hope...
I'm scared for my statistics and my electricity class. Shit, I hope it all goes well.
The weather is warming up. I need to run again. As soon as school is done I'm gonna run like hell.
Mau.

Ah, another birthday

My weight is at 104 kilos. Again. I can't wait until school is done. I need to regain my running habits.
Mau.

Mau, run like hell, now that you can.

I haven't uploaded this about... a week ago, exactly.
Antibiotics worked, I'm back in class. Today I surprised myself, though I think I pushed it a bit too much... I kicked Cachoeira. ...again.
Cachoeira, if you ever read this, at this point I'm seriously considering getting you ANOTHER stuffed animal... because that was one serious kick. I'm sorry... xD
I can't wait to see Karim and Pisao.
Karim, you're a really important person to me. You're the only friend I've learned positive things from.
And Pisao, you probably don't remember about one conversation that we had quite a while back, one time that you drove me home. We talked about you having a pizza-delivery job, or something like that, and how you enjoyed driving around and stuff. Ever since then, I realized that you are totally different from what you seemed at first to me. And it made me feel like you're somebody I can trust. And I can't wait until you're back. There's stories to be shared.
I want to run tomorrow. I want to be in my best for when Karim and for when Pisao get back. Pisao... I forget your actual name... BAH I gotta look you up on facebook again.
-Mau!

Mau, you so sick, you so sick

I'm sick.
I started on antibiotics last night. But I still feel like shit. I got work in 3 hours. Fuuuuuck.
Later
Mau.

Ah, challenges...

Yesterday it would have been 5 weeks until our yearly event. I don't know if I'm gonna feel ready for it.
I felt ready once upon a time. LAST year. Last year I was on top of the world, and my teacher bitched at me and said to not think of going to the event unless I could pay for it. I feel like shit still over that. It meant so much to me, and now I'm at the back of the lines.
5 weeks, right after exams. I don't think it's gonna happen.
Mau.

I didn't update this on Monday.
I ended up going to class. My teacher was dead from Capoeira and extensive driving to Michigan on Saturday and Montreal on Sunday. So on Monday he didn't work out, but we did. And I got bloody blisters. I hadn't got those bitches in ages.
Anyways, it was a good workout. Hopefully today will be the same.
-Mau.

Man...

In a month it will be a year since I started this blog.
Still, no views, nothing attractive about it.
Lately I haven't worked out much. I wasn't able to go to class on Wednesday and got called a wuss and a slacker. Saturday class was canceled. Sometimes I think I got what it takes to teach one class, maybe when my teacher, his wife, or his nephew aren't there. But, no, I guess I don't.
Anyways. No class for me until tomorrow, after a miserably long day. Fuck me.
I feel gross. I need to run again. I'm disappointed. I can't wait for warmer days.
On the bright side, I still weigh less than last year. That does make me feel better.
I'm 5 kilos lighter than today a year ago.
-Mau.

"Espantalho stop punching yourself >D"

Today's class was really tough, but I managed.
I used 25pound weights on each arm. And with that I did curls, military presses, and tricep extensions.
Shit was painful.
And I was holding a pad for my teacher, he kicked really hard and made my hand full-punch my mouth.
My lip is slightly swollen still. I'm glad nobody's noticed.
-Mau.

I haven't done any extra curricular workouts lately other than my capoeira class.
I havent weighted myself either. But I feel lighter.
Ah, I want to feel good.
-Mau.

Yesterday I was gonna do weights, but I skipped it because I was really busy. However, last night's class was hard, so I think it evened out.

tuesday night

I didn't work out today: I was out for most of the useful part of the day. It was enjoyable.
Tomorrow I should be doing weights to make up for today.
OH and Karim made it back to Ryerson. I'm very happy he's gonna be back.

Monday night

I just got back from capoeira and drank a serving of whey protein.
Today was a tough class. We did stuff I hadn't ever done before as a form of training: elbowing, knees, tons of straight kicks, sprawls, slaps/punches, fuck. It's harder than it seems. But it was a good work out. I got the chance to explain one of the twins how to elbow targets propperly.
Ah, I'm tired. Tomorrow I should be doing weights. I'm thinking of working weights three days and then cardio two days, according to liam rosen's manual. We'll see where that takes me.

A good start: again.

Hey, Mau here.
So, my winter break started this week.
I wasn't able to go to most of my capoeira class on Saturday. However, right after work, I went there. I warmed up, and played hard. I felt good.
Sunday, I worked. On my way home I saw this woman running in the street... and felt nostalgia.
I felt sad for having lost that which made me feel proud of. That which made me feel strong. That which made me feel like a motherfucking snowplow at full speed.
So I ran.
I ran back to work. Just to mess with them.
I was dying on the bridge, but I kept thinking of... good memories. =]
And I kept saying to myself: "I am a fucking truck. I'm a snowplow. I'm an 18 wheeler."
And I made it there. I sat down at work feeling pretty damn good about myself.
Then, the way back, I made it back. And felt awesome.
Today, I ran again. I did a small circuit. I don't know how long I took this morning, but it was alright.
Tonight I have capoeira. I feel light. I think it's gonna be a good class.
Also, a good gift from /fit/izens:
http://www.liamrosen.com/

Later!

Oh Wednesday, you so crazy, you.

Today was my only chance of going to Toronto to leave an impression on my teacher's teacher. I wasn't able to go and got shit for it, like always.
I'm really not happy with the way I've become lately. I need to change again.

Pissed at myself.

I've gained weight in the past weeks during midterms. It's pissing me the fuck off. I hate being in the environment in which I am: one pound makes a difference, being light means being fast and strong, fuck. It's just like women having all markets aiming towards unnaturally skinny women.
The weight I've regained has made me feel short of breath again. It's made my knees hurt again.
Motherfucker...

Horrible, just, horrible.

Hey, Mau here.
I haven't been able to keep with the blog lately. School is building up, and I haven't had even time to work out.
I skipped class on monday and wednesday (I think, can't remember) and I will have to skip tonight.
Last night I only got less than an hour of sleep.
And I have a midterm today. We'll see how that goes.
Mau

Tuesday night

Today was a pretty long day. Technically it's shorter than Monday, but it feels just the same. I was done school at 6, and didn't have time to eat breakfast, and I didn't eat well throughout the day.
And my stomach hurts. It sucks.
I hope I get to work out tomorrow.

Busted shoulder, I guess.

My shoulder hurts. I didn't train today. I have two midterms this week and I got tons of stuff to catch up on.
Later

supersize me

I just watched that documental.
I'm not eating McDonalds in quite a while.

I need to change my body schedule. That's one of the reasons why I feel tired all the time. My body schedule has been fucked for quite a while.

Haven't blogged in a few days

I'm doing okay, ish. I have been eating really poorly lately, but it's gonna change back tomorrow.
Today's class was rather easy. It bothered me a bit. Now that I recall, we didn't run for warm-up. It sucks.
Anyways, I tried my best at whatever we did today. Speaking of which, I can do a handless cartwheel (au sem mao) completely off the floor. I'm proud. The old me is getting back.
Later!

Class didn't seem too hard today. But I wasn't feeling that great at the beginning. I felt like if my eyes were just gonna pop.
But it wore off, now they just kinda burn a little bit. I'll go upstairs and shower and wash my face. That'll fix me up.

Today I didn't work out. I had a "meeting" to do work, but later realized that we weren't doing any work.

I just got back from class
I just had my protein
I'm not feeling that good
But it's okay
later

KAY, today's done.

I didn't do much cardio today. It was a quick work out. I did 10 minutes rowing, then about 100 back extensions, a bit of abs, and then I stretched.
I had my whey protein thinger, and now I'm eating my lunch: campbells chunky.
Man, this stuff is seriously amazing.
Also, my doctor got the results from my bloodwork back, and I have an appointment for February 1st at 10:50 am.
We'll see wth is up.
Later!

Monday night again

Class was alright. I was exhausted before, but I crashed for a few hours and I was good for class.
Now I should be studying.
I had my protein and now I'm tired.
I'll work out tomorrow at school.
Later!

Sunday

Today, my teacher's teacher taught in this city. It was kind of nice to be exposed to something different.
He's a nice guy.
It was a good class. I had my protein shake right after, and multivitamins in the morning.
My food intake has been normal: not too much nor too little.
There's class tomorrow. I don't know if I can do it. But I want to.

Pushing it.

Today I didn't feel as shitty as before.
My breakfast was bad though. A few crackers, then a paddie and coffee at the bus station.
With that I lasted until about 5. Then I had my protein bar, and then after that I had dinner.
Today's work out was this:
20 minutes cardio
I forget how many pushups
two of my 80 crunches sets
I worked on the back row thinger but not for too long. I was just showing a friend.
I forget what else I did during my work out. I know it was longer than average.

Ah, gym again.

Today I got off my ass and went to the gym for my break.
I did 10 minutes of rowing, and then 10 sets of that push-up/weight combo I do, 20 straight-up leg crunches, 20 bent-leg, 20 regular crunches, and 20 each side.
Then I had protein stuff at school.
I'm considering taking my own protein to school.
I'm still feeling really weak and pathetic. I was able to do 30 minutes cardio, now I could only do 10 without pushing myself too much.
Bah.

Back on the ball. I think.

Today I went to class and had my protein shake.
We'll see what happens tomorrow.
I'm not feeling that great either.

Still anemia

I finally was able to get cheap protein.
Six star chocolate flavoured.
I'll try to work out and have my protein like before. I don't expect really good results. I barely have any energy to stay awake on the way to school and back.

Moods, moods.

Today I could barely wake up. I was supposed to wake up at 10. Keyword, supposed to.
It's strange how much moods affect a person's energy levels and food intake.
I was worried that I had gone through the entire day with only a small sandwich and food seemed to disgust me, about at 6 pm. So I forced myself to eat a protein bar (2.99. I'm surprised) and then when I got to this city I ate something small on the way home. I just had pizza with my brother.
Tomorrow I should feel a lot better.
Anemia is still a problem. I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow, and see what's happening with my body.

Anemia...

I'm pissed. I've been eating well, but I still feel weak. Weaker.
This is very upsetting.

Not having class on Saturday sucks.

And next Saturday I won't have it either. I'm working. However, to make up for it, there's class on Sunday. ContraMestre Lua should be teaching that class. I really hope I feel better by then. I feel really weak and really tired lately.

Today I ate a huge lunch. A burger. But not just a burger. It was THE burger. A giant thing on a plate with a bunch of fries. God, it was awesome.

This coming week I intend to go back to the gym. I really have to get back into running every day.

tadaa

There's no class tomorrow. I haven't worked out other than in class.
Today I hung out with Mel after school. I love seeing her and feeling her close to me.
After that, I said I'd walk to the train station, which I thought was close.
I ran. Ran like hell. In the cold. For about half an hour.
I guess my running counts as a type of work out. It feels good to be able to run when I need to.
And to run when I want to.
I'm tired now.

lol, lost motivation again.

Didn't do anything today, just work.
Don't remember what I ate, don't remember any physical activities.
Unless I find a good reason, I think this blog might be close to done.
No goals, no nothing. Not even class. I want to drop out again. I want to delete everyone from facebook. And forget about everything.

Sweet ass Jacket

Long day!

Today I woke up at 9 am and left my house at 9:40 to go to work. I worked 10-7pm, and then hung out with a friend of mine until 9. Then I went to class.
The work out was alright.
My legs hurt. I've stood from 10 until 7pm, and then I went to class.
Tabby wanted to join the class. I brought her in today. I don't think she'll be joining in.
She also asked me to help her be more active. That I can do. After all, I need it.

January 1st. New beginings. Again.

Today I ate well, I think. Healthy stuff. I'll start working out tons as soon as school starts. It's always good to be close to a gym. That way, things just work out: you're bored, your clothes are in your locker, and the gym is there.